The greatness of a nation can be judged by the way its animals are treated." Mahatma Gandhi ”


I have been working on a children's book called The Secret Adventures of Scruffy MacMufiin and a CD called Dog Vacation for the past year. Both projects are about the senior shelter dogs and cats that my husband and I have adopted or fostered over the past decade. What a fun and surprisingly arduous project! Big, BigThanks to Tim Ouimette and Jon Cobert who co produced the CD and Kathleen Kent for giving me suggestions and courage to write the book!
Dog is Love           Senior shelter pets Rule!

Diagnosis Cancer in the time of Covid 19

A Hard Days Night 

It's magical when you fall so in love that it directs the course of your life.

The Beatles.

I first heard The Beatles on The Ed Sullivan show. My sister somehow got my mother's permission to wake me up and let me watch it with she and my brother.

When I first saw "A Hard Days Night", I was already obsessed with The Beatles music. I knew I was a singer.

The madcap, ultra cool vibe of the movie THRILLED me! It's still one of my go to, make me feel better, movies.

I am watching it this morning, Still in LOVE with The Beatles, preparing to get immunotherapy today.

I get very anxious on treatment day.

I am lucky. The drug Opdivo i get once a month has minor side effects. Nothing I can't handle.

But, I still get anxious, hoping I'm not one of the people who it starts to mess up their organs.

ie make me diabetic for the rest of my life.

You know, the fast side effect disclaimers on all the pharma commercials.

Watching any drug commercial, Tim and I would say to each other, Why would anyone risk all that?

I know why now.

I do have a weird reaction when getting it, so it requires mild sedation. I worry about that before I go.

Also, the reality of going to the infusion suite, seeing the other patients, some very sick, is hard not to take in.

What am I doing here? There must be a mistake.

It makes me want to run out the door.

I still consider myself VERY LUCKY.

Through all this, I can still sing.

BUT, every step of the way has been a FIGHT with my insurance company. They deny every treatment, every scan, every test before they say yes.

I've learned to not read their first letters because I would spend my days very pissed off and upset if I did.

The people controlling a patient's medical needs is the insurance company, not the doctor. My doctor, her staff,  usually has to spend time fighting for me. Ridiculous!

This month my insurance company, Fidellis "Care", is telling me I can't see my oncologist anymore because when she switched jobs, she left their network.

It's a funny thing about getting Cancer, I have attached to my oncologist like my life depends on it. Like she is my special ops rescuer and I don't want to leave her side, even though I'm doing great. It is not rational. I know there are other great oncologists, but I trust my doctor and I don't want to leave her in mid treatment.

So, I will go through the hassle of trying to find coverage that her new hospital accepts and that I can afford next week. And the hassle of trying to get another oncologist to order my scans etc for the remaining 6 weeks of my health insurance coverage for 2020.

Every month is a struggle to get what I am told I need to fight this cancer.


That we don't have universal, 'single payer" health care in the US is infuriating.

That anyone who is sick has to go through this emotional nightmare is disgusting.

If other countries can figure it out, so can we. Any offer of doing a combo health plan is just letting these companies

keep their big foot in the door. It's pure greed on the part of the insurance companies, big pharma and the

politicians. ALL OF THEM. If you don't think so, WAKE UP.

Your health is NOT the priority. Their profit is.

This doesn't make me a socialist. I would like my taxes to go to providing quality health care for All US citizens.  Not just people who can afford a large monthly insurance bill.

I despair over the fact that we, American Citizens, actually disagree over this.

Warning, don't get sick in the U.S.

Back to 'A Hard Days Night".



First Scans  All clear! No Cancer! Whew Hoo!

I did the scans on Monday and got the results on Thursday.

Talk about Thy will be done.

I applied for the WTC 911 victim fund for people who lived in the area and got cancer.

I joined Gilda's club.

I can't believe I did all these things. I can't believe I had to do them.

I would hear about these things for people with Cancer and think how heavy.

I never dreamed it would ever apply to me.

I am grateful for all these things.

I am grateful to my Doctors : Dr. Anna Pavlick and Dr. Erica Friedman.

Eva Cassidy 

I had heard her sing before and knew she was good. This past weekend my brother in law Jerry played me a few of her songs and I was really blown away. I heard she died young. 

I had treatment today. An infusion of Opdivo, an immunotherapy wonder drug. I am lucky. I've been told had I been diagnosed with Melanoma as little as ten years ago, it would have been a death sentence. Honestly, shocking to think if I didn't step in front of this with medical help and lifestyle changes, this would be the beginning of the end of my life. I don't feel old or remotely ready. The infusion only lasts 30 minutes. Last time, I had a reaction so I was scared. A new hospital, too. They are starting to lightly sedate me with liquid Benadryl. I sleep and get the infusion. I know it is so much easier than chemo. I won't loose my hair or look like death warmed over. But it is still scary because of the possible side effects. It's stressful.

I bravely say I'm gonna fly through this like some people do. I'm not gonna have any of those symptoms or reactions.But I had a few things happen after surgery that make me realize It could happen to me. I'm not really in control here. What if I do get the negative side effects? says the quiet voice in my head.

SO I chant, and eat a vegan diet, exercise and use step three, "Made a decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God as I understood him"

But it was a stressful day and I can't sleep. So I looked up Eva Cassidy. I listened to her beautiful recordings and was so moved by her voice and inspired by her performances.

Then I looked up about her life and death. She was diagnosed with melanoma in 1993. She had surgery but unfortunately, the cancer came back and killed her in November of 1996. She was 33.

 It stopped me in my tracks. I had melanoma. That is what I am fighting now, in case there are microscopic cells lurking somewhere. I really felt for her. She loved to sing and write, just like me. She was active in music in the 80's and 90's just like me. I can't imagine missing out on all those years of life and making music. Very, very sad.

Truly the worlds loss, too. She was an amazing talent.

Thy will not mine be done. But, God I hope all this works and extends my time here on earth.

Eva Cassidy

My Post Op Journey Hello Sit Ups  

I started doing them again. First time since surgery in May.

Fantastic! I've never appreciated or enjoyed them this much!   (lol)

Rebounder  mini trampoline

So good for your lymph system and so much fun!


As I begin to workout again after surgery one of the best things I have done is join

Bike Riding

Get those legs going. Focus.


Great workout without the stress on your back or knees.

It feels great to move and reclaim my body.

I let stress take me off the path of healthy diet and exercise about 20 years ago.

Diet and physical activity are listed as the number two possible contributors to cancer.

Good news:

This is all stuff I can control.

My life is my responsibility.

(Don't get me started on toxic relationships.The main one being with myself.)

I read this often:

"Just one week after he graduated from Yale Law School, while he was training for the 2008 Beijing Olympic Games, Seun Adebiyi was diagnosed with lymphoma and leukemia. This forced him to put his Olympic dreams on the back burner as he rethought his life plans. 

Adebiyi knows all about mental toughness and resilience. After experiencing firsthand the difficulty of finding stem cell donors (the odds of finding a genetically compatible donor is less than 17 percent for those of African descent, compared to 70 percent for Caucasians), Seun took it upon himself to found Nigeria's first national bone marrow registry--the second ever in Africa. 

And Adebiyi did eventually participate in the Olympics, carrying the torch for Nigeria in the 2018 Winter Olympic Games. Today, Adebiyi is cancer-free, and he made the decision to become an entrepreneur. He's currently a self-employed, freelance attorney with InCloudCounsel, a legal technology company that automates and enhances high-volume legal processes. 

Here, according to Seun Adebiyi, are five ways to develop unbeatable mental toughness. 

1. Never confuse who you are with what you do. 

The most common mistake people make is to confuse their self-worth with their accomplishments. Says Adebiyi, "I remember when I first missed the Olympics--fracturing my spine from overtraining just months before the 2000 Games. It was my first major setback as an athlete, and I completely crumbled mentally--all because I had made the mistake of tying my self-worth to my sense of accomplishment." In reality, nothing could be further from the truth. 

2. Master your inner dialogue. 

What you say to yourself matters more than what the entire world together says about you. When he was fighting leukemia with intensive chemo and full body radiation, Adebiyi refused to wear a hospital gown. Instead, he wore workout sweats and did walking lunges up and down the linoleum hospital floors, pushing his surgically attached IV pole next to him. Says Adebiyi, "Doctors and nurses looked at me like I was crazy, but I never accepted their perspective that I was a 'cancer patient.' In my mind, I was an Olympic hopeful who just happened to be overcoming cancer." 

3. Learn to live in the moment. 

Let's face it--sometimes life just kicks you in the teeth. Trying to avoid suffering is like trying to cross the Atlantic in a rowboat without getting wet. When the storms of life start tossing you around like a toy, you need an anchor--something you can cling to when all seems hopeless. According to Adebiyi, "That anchor was my breath. I just focused on surviving from breath to breath, and repeated the following words over and over like a mantra: 'This too shall pass.'"  

4. Fortify your village, then build a moat. 

In many African countries, there's a popular saying, "It takes a village to raise a child." This is true in life as well. Learn to pick your associates carefully. Find those handful of people who will support you no matter what, invest your time and energy in strengthening those relationships. As Adebiyi explains, you may also need to distance yourself from the toxic people in your life who tear down your self-confidence. "This might involve some painful conversations, spending less time on social media, and ending a few relationships," says Adebiyi. "But trust me, it's virtually impossible to master your inner dialogue and develop inner resilience with someone whispering doubts in your ear." 

5. Be prepared, be prepared, be prepared. 

As someone once said, never let a good crisis go to waste. Often, the biggest opportunities for personal and professional growth are found in times of upheaval and uncertainty. The time to "hurricane-proof" your life isn't when the shingles start to fly off the roof, but when the sky is still blue and sunny. Suggests Adebiyi, "Work on your self-image, inner dialogue, present moment awareness, and key relationships now. It doesn't take much: You can practice visualization/meditation every day, affirm your key relationships, and minimize negative influences with just a few minutes each day." 

And when life comes knocking, you'll be ready to rock". 

New song:

The Serenity Prayer 

God grant me the Serenity to

Accept the things I cannot change.

The Courage to change the things I can.

And the Wisdom to know the difference.


The Serenity prayer is one of the most important tools I've ever learned. It is a north star during troubling times.

A guide to help me know where I am and what I can do to get to where I want to be.

I cannot change that I developed cancer.

I can change how I eat, how I live, how I think, what and who I allow in my life.

My body is amazing! It heals it self. But it also needs a little help sometimes and that's where western medicine comes in.

I start Immunotherapy today. One half hour, once a month, for a year.

It is supposed to be GREAT! A real game changer for people with Melanoma.

There are possible side effects but many people don't experience them.

I am gonna be one of those people.

I'm scared but am trying to change my thoughts about it and welcome this as the necessary help I need to kill any remaining cancer cells.

We all know how the story ends but if I can get a few more chapters, I'll be grateful.

Here we go.

One Day at Time.

This is a song on my WOW, I wish I Wrote That, list!

"Knock Knock." "Whose there?" "Mortality." 

"What the. ...?" Eyes wide. Jaw dropping.

"Sorry but, You have the wrong person." I say sternly.

"Are you Kathi McGunnigle?" it asks, glancing at a tattered scroll.

"Yes." I respond hesitantly.

"You're on the list." It says, kindly, looking me in the eyes.

"Listen, you are really early. I wasn't expecting you for 20 or 30 years.

I think there's been a mistake. I'm too young and I feel really healthy."

Looking down at the list, looking back up at me, it shrugs it's shoulders.

There is an awkward pause.


I still have songs to write and sing!

I have a young dog to raise!

My husband and I haven't been to Greece or the Rockies yet!

I want to meet Paul McCartney!"

There is another awkward pause.

"Ok." it says. I'll swing back around later."

Here's where I run to an Oncologist.( NYU Dr. Anna Pavlick

Here's where I change everything.

Now after surgery,(thank you Dr. Erica B Friedman) I start Immunotherapy.

No chemo. No radiation. (Yay)

My part.

I am committing to a raw diet for the next 90 days, at least.

I've been told developing cancer isn't my fault BUT I think you are what you eat.

I want my body to be inhospitable to cancer so I will flood it with cancer fighting veggies

and step up my spiritual practice of SGI Buddhism.

Maybe it's me just wanting a little control.

I have nothing to loose and everything to gain.

This is my blog about my experience with Metastatic Melanoma.

It is meant to help others and myself go through this journey together.

The support and kindness of everyone has meant EVERYTHING to me.

So strange to be going through this deeply personal health crisis while Covid 19 exploded and the tragedy of

George Floyd's senseless murder and subsequent uprising. I wish I could go to the protests. I am there in spirit.



The World Outside What Would Gandhi Do? 

I have had to limit my exposure to the world outside because I need to heal.

But some things slip though. Somethings, I can not turn from as much as I would like to not know.

Words can not adequately express my sadness and disgust over the recent murder of, yet another African American, George Floyd.

My heart goes out to his family and all African Americans who live with this awful, ugly racist environment in the United States. I despair over the cruelty of some human beings. I feel a wave of shame to be white and an American. But, who I am is not the color of my skin. I am the contents of my heart.

Why are these racist idiots allowed on the police force? I am so glad people have taken to the streets. I'm a practicing Buddhist and I would like to eliminate ALL violence BUT I can't help but think Maybe the violence will catch their attention and demand a change in who is hired to be a police person. But I sure don't want to see innocent business people or bystanders hurt. I am with everyone on the streets in spirit.

But then I chant

Nam Myho Renge Kyo

and think

What Would Buddha Do?

What Would Jesus Do?

What would Gandhi Do?

What Would Martin Luther King do?

What Would Nelson Mandela Do?

If they changed unacceptable racist behaviors and environments through non violence, so can we.

But we need to rise up and demand change.

They will not give it to us.

We need to unite. For real.

I love my Buddhist practice because it includes and values EVERYONE.

I am going to enjoy this beautiful day in my garden, with my husband and my pets,

so grateful for my health and my life, but with a very heavy heart.


Surgery and post op recovery: “The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” ― Rumi. 

I was too overwhelmed to write.

It all went well but OMG, it is heavy. It hurts.

The first two days all I did, all I Could do, was pray and let people care for me in ways I've never done before.

Lets just say All self sufficiency and privacy went out the window. My nurses were so kind.

Their names are:

Maryl, Shawn, Alisa, Austin and Valerie. THANK YOU.

I went home after 4 days. It was tough. I had to go the the ER the second night because I had developed blood clots in my arm where the IV had been inserted.

It's all getting better, day by day.

  But, wow. Surgery goes first on my Never again please, list.

The Waves Of Love The Winds Of Change 

The Waves Of Love

The outpouring of love and help since my diagnosis has been very uplifting and beautiful.

Old friends, new friends, family and strangers. I can never thank you all enough.

I can and will pay it forward.

Life is a 'we" program.

Just when I was questioning whether I had made any meaningful bonds during my life, getting cancer showed me that I did and that I was loved.

Truly amazing. So helpful for healing.

I thought what I went through last year, helping my special needs dog, Loki, was the most powerful experience of human kindness I had ever known.

But, now, my experience with cancer and the people who have helped me is on par with that and even more intense because it is saving my life.

And, making re-evaluate EVERYTHING.

The Winds Of Change

My date with cancer was on the books for a long time.

My doctor says it is the result of sun damage from childhood.

But humans are complex beings. We are physical, mental/emotional and spiritual.

I think there is more to my developing this dis-ease.

I think I had a big hand in creating an environment that allowed the cancer to flourish.

Poor reaction to Stress

Allowing toxic relationships to stay in my life

Bad Diet

Not enough exercise

Fighting to Live

I am using traditional oncology doctors and immunothereapy


Hypnotherapy with Althea at Universal Intelligence

A plant based diet

I'm following Chris Wark at

and Caren Hartglass at

I was a vegetarian for many, many years. Recently I changed to a meat filled Keto diet that I loved and lost a lot of weight on.

But I can't help but wonder if it wasn't the final brick that crushed my failing immune system, allowing the cancer to proliferate.

SGI Buddhist  Chant Nam Myho Renge Kyo

Not On My Watch

I was surprised how easy it was to get overwhelmed by the stress of life and to collapse into bad health.


I will never let this happen again. Any of it.

Not the bad health habits as a way to numb out stress or toxic relationships.

My health, physical, emotional and spiritual, is my responsibility.

And there is plenty I can do to make it better.

I am not a victim.

Detach with love or with a hatchet.

Just let go of bad vibe situations and people. Quickly.

I don't have to fix it, figure it out or rise above.

I only have to save myself.

See The Buddha nature in everyone. Forgive everyone, everything.


This is my mentor and beloved friend Nona Hendryx's song

"The Winds Of Change".

I was lucky enough to sing on the first recording.

II think it is one of the BEST SONGS Ever written.







Ready Set Go! 

Dr. Erica Friedman will be doing surgery tomorrow morning on my left leg to get rid of the melanoma that has unfortunately spread to my lymph.

I'll be glad when this poison is out of my body.

Thanks to Everyone who has showered me with love and support.

I am ready for battle!

Check out our version of "Lean On Me" and I Won't Back Down"

Be an advocate for World Peace. Donate to Download my song World Peace For Christmas as my thank you!

NY Musicians For Peace

I got so sick of all the recent tragedies of racism and violence, sick of feeling powerless, sick of standing in my living room yelling at the tv, that I asked some of my friends to raise their voices with me for brotherhood and peace. We share this powerful message with you, written by John Lennon, in the hopes that you will raise your voice with us and share it with everyone who wants a world that is color blind and nonviolent.
Thank you:

 Tim Ouimette, Gary Schreiner, Jon Cobert, Sammy Merendino, Alex Alexander, Will Lee, Ira Siegel, Leon Pendarvis, Lisa Ratner, Ed Xiques, Rick Kriska, Ken Jioffre, Loiuse Baranger, Art Triggs, JC Santalis, Keith Anthony Fluitt, Darryl Tookes, Holly McCracken, Ada Dyer, Sandy Farina, Eugene Ruffolo, Russ Velasquez, Sheryl Marshall, Emily Bindiger, Janie Barnett, Cindy Thrall, Erik Boyd and all the rest who were there in spirit. I am honored and moved by your talent and heart. 

Thank you for singing out with me.                                               Nam Myho Renge Kyo
                        "You May Say I'm A Dreamer. But, I'm Not The Only One." John Lennon