I was too overwhelmed to write.
It all went well but OMG, it is heavy. It hurts.
The first two days all I did, all I Could do, was pray and let people care for me in ways…
May 20 2020
The Waves Of Love The Winds Of Change
The Waves Of Love
The outpouring of love and help since my diagnosis has been very uplifting and beautiful.
Old friends, new friends, family and strangers. I can never thank you all enough.
I can and will…
May 6 2020
Ready Set Go!
Dr. Erica Friedman will be doing surgery tomorrow morning on my left leg to get rid of the melanoma that has unfortunately spread to my lymph.
I'll be glad when this poison is out of my body.
Thanks…
May 2 2020
Girl Crush Girl Power!
Gril Crush : When one is blown away by how AWESOME a gal is! Nothing romantic.
I have two Girl Crushes!
1 My new Oncologist Dr. Anna Pavlick She found my primary melanoma! She is sooo smart, very…
Apr 27 2020
Poison Into Medicine Hope
SGI President Ikeda states: Buddhism teaches the principle of changing poison into medicine. Therefore, no matter what difficulties we may encounter, we can take them on with a positive attitude. All we have to do is keep pressing forward with…
Apr 23 2020
Behind Door Number 2.....
Drum roll
Nothing
I was hoping the PET scan would reveal where the primary tumor is residing. But it did not.
Wow. I was warned about this subset of cancer patients that struggle to find their primary…
Apr 17 2020
"The Waiting Is The Hardest Part"
Tom Petty was right, the waiting IS the hardest part. Being told you have cancer, melanoma it turns out, isn't a day at the beach but waiting to get an appointment for the test you need to find the primary…
Apr 13 2020
"Do I Have Your Attention?"
In my dream, I am running along the shore and then into a small seaside town, like the one in "Doc Martin".
Someone is trying to kill me. I am running and hiding. Scared.
I wake up with…
Apr 10 2020
The Definition of Anxiety - Waiting for an appointment with an Oncologist.
My New definition of anxiety, long form: Waiting for a call from your oncologist, waiting for an appointment with your oncologist, trying to set up tests to find the primary source of cancer during Covid 19 when EVERYONE is not…
Apr 8 2020
"Unfortunately, you have Cancer."
I started tuning out at unfortunately because I knew what was coming. It couldn't be true. I feel too good.
I dutifully repeated the information to let my doctor know I had heard and understood what he had just…